Hi, I'm Rhi. I'm 18. I'm sad a lot, but I'm working on it. Feel free to message me about anything my ask is always open x
Feel like complete shit tonight. I’ve got so much reading to do but I just want to curl up and sleep.
Red’s leaving for the airport now. A 15 hour flight from Japan and he’ll be home again. I’m more nervous than he is!
I miss him far too much… And it’s still another 10 days until I get to see him again. This distance is unbearable.
we’re here, we’re queer, we’re kinda tired and don’t really want to go to class
I fell for your thoughts,
the way that you said my name,
how you make me speechless
I ache to be inside your mind,
hear the whisper of every thought,
get lost in your deepest desires
I want you lying down next to me
caressing the soft curves of my face,
running your fingers down my back
I fell for you.
I ache for you
I want you.
Life delivers an abundance of challenges, and sometimes it can really beat us up and make us question our own significance. Self negativity tends to build up and stick to me like sludge, and I can’t shake it off until I remind myself that I am the enemy, and I need to fight back. We all need to tell ourselves these words whenever we lose our faith. So take care of yourself, and you’ll cleanse away the sludge that slows us down from our original purpose here on earth.
Dear future child
If it’s 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair
Please do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as I did
Please climb onto my bed
And I will hold you until the demons sleep
If it is Thursday morning and you are too sad to move
I won’t force you
I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favourite tv show and I will remind you of your importance
If you feel as if you have no purpose
I will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, I feel too
When you’re sure you can’t go on anymore
I will tell you that when I was 21 I searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killers
But that five years later
When you were placed in my arms in the delivery room
I realised that you were why I had been holding on
Without realising it, you saved me, do you know how amazing that is?
So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle, put it down, we will get in the car and I will drive until the sky turns magenta
I will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too
Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings
As my mother was to mine.